Strength of Character

You learn one’s strength of character by the way one tackles the everyday struggles and challenges of life.

If people cheat, run, and goes overboard facing simple things, be sure they won’t be able to stand up and stay firm when matters get more complicated.

I noticed how this craze for everything easy and this mindset of instant gratification has found a way in almost every consciousness.

“i want it all and i want it now” is an utopia.

The greatest culminating moments of one’s life are but the products of long hours of sweating, perseverance and willpower…

Sure, it is easy and safe to run away, to take the shortest route to a destination, or to take the most widely used roads… However, you are denying yourself the opportunity to learn and grow in strength and wisdom.

The most beautiful things are those unseen treasures lying just behind the repulsive stained windows.

Wash your eyes clean and see through the windows how wrong you are pursuing what is easy and ephemeral over the real deal.

Tomorrow another challenge awaits me, and although all I want to do is sleep and not go to where my responsibilities call me, I will wake up and face it one more time.

No backing down.

You have a shoulder to lean on

The biggest mistake we can make is to think we are left alone to face storms of life.
The realization that we have a heavenly father who cares and loves us is comforting.
The even more encouraging thought is the knowledge we have an eternal destiny.
No matter how hard the road,how short our time here,we are called to be happy with God above.

The truth is that there is a hole deep inside our beings that can only be filled with His love.
We won’t ever be satisfied, no matter how hard we try to indulge in satisfying our pleasures,and choosing our will.

Let us trust in God’s will for us even amidst adversities.
Adversities make us grow.
Freedom is in doing what our duty is.
Our duty as a child of God.

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Need to get a grip on myself

Be the change you want to see in the world. ~ Gandhi

It is said the quality of your thoughts determines the quality of your life.
What we often fail to understand is that our thoughts are influenced by what we see and hear in our everyday life.

So, the first step towards a new life,is silence to the worldly sounds as well as blindness to the worldly sights.
E.g. Being offline,cutting t.v.,no music,…

Then,the second step is opening our heart,choosing meekness and humility.

Lastly,is spending time studying the traits and virtues we wish to develop after recognising where we stand.
I,would chose a Bible,trusting in the power of the Holy Spirit over human nature.
We have the choice amidst possibilities.

I think that a week on our own,in a peaceful, nature setting, is a pretty change from the usual,using this time to connect to the divine.

I won’t hide.I wrote this for me.I’m trying it for a fearless heart and unwavering will.

Though,we shall agree,that a true change of heart and life,comes to those who are bold enough to take a step in the unknown.

Patience in an impatient heart

Waiting could kill,
but when done with love,
it is bearable,
molds you into a stronger being,
as you cherish each moment,
till the ultimate moment.

You

 Gut wrenching pain,

Reminds me of how I long for,

You.

 

Tear-filled eyes.

I need a hand tucked in mine,

Yours.

 

Frightened and weary,

A shield from evil,

You.

 

Encouragement and trust,

Next beside me, love,

Yours.

 

Now, the strength, I need is,

To wait for,

You.

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#1 – when your time comes

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Knowledge, power, glory
Will fade away as your time comes
To an end
Will you feel dread or peace?
As your eyes closes and strength fails you
Silence will whisper of the truth
Behind your life

Each second has a price
Has it been paid?
For time isn’t money, it is love
Will the love in your heart
Set you free…

Agony or peace at your deathbed
Speaks of the life you led
I pray each day for a hand
A loving one, for you
When your time comes

“God, take care of your child.”

Heartaches

Sometimes I no longer understand if I should give importance to a heartache, the fact of acutely missing somebody, etc…

Really I used to wonder if a heartache can be felt, and it sure does.
I literally can feel my left chest area aching and I feel like there’s something missing…and my heart tears up…

It isn’t the first time I’ve felt this kind of pain, but this time it feels more ‘real’, more ‘tangible’,…

I’m just waiting for the fire within to die out and it sure is taking its time…

I just resigned, given up…or trying to.

Every breath feels like a fight against myself to let it all go and put my trust in something more powerful so as to stand up, complete and filled up with love, peace as well as happiness…

With time, I’m reaching out for comfort and solace in the arms of my God, praying for the strength to face it all alone…

I have to, try, for the first time, to mend myself whole, back again with the help of God instead of searching for comfort in the wrong places…

I’m sad to feel that there is no true peace, companionship and friendship, in the arms of another human being. It isn’t perfect. Nor even close to perfect.

I haven’t been blessed with someone I can rely on at my lowest lows, nor a shoulder to cry on, nor been special enough to someone, so I must do with what I have.

I try not to resent anyone…simply to welcome the tears and the pain, for it is better I suffer silently than show others where the wounds are, they will only inflict pain in exactly the same places…

Don’t speak, don’t cry, just keep to yourself, and look carefully for those rare gems that bring solace and joy to your heart when it is hurting badly!

Who’s to know if…

Over the years, I’ve lost track of who I am…
I’ve bore the brunt of injustice.
I know about betrayal.
I’ve felt hatred so deep I would wish death and everything disgusting that could happen to those who had hurt me.
I’ve cloaked myself with indifference.
And then step by step, I’ve started to let go of all those walls…
I no longer felt hatred, no longer felt the need to strike back, an eye for an eye…I would forgive…and even forget…that if you asked me to recollect every moment of hurt, I wouldn’t say much…

But now, I’m just tired of people.
There are all shades of people.

At the end of the day, I’m tired of the effort it took me to lend a hand, give a smile, be there…i feel empty…

Like my sole reason to be was to enlighten the lives of others at the detriment of mine for no one lightens my life as much as I would want to…

I’m the fool who really cares…while some are faking it…

To stop living for oneself alone is good, but don’t let anyone use you, walk over yourself…which I do for I absolutely hate conflicts…
I prefer peace so much that I just don’t break out in anger. I keep it inside.
I focus on something else rather than the anger…

I’m angry for the challenges I face are so huge…
I’m angry for none of my dreams have ever come true.
It’s so frustrating. As I go to sleep, I’m teased with the appearance of what I secretly would wish to have in reality.
It’s so close to having it, that I cry when I wake up.
Couldn’t it be more cruel?
I console myself with the fact that I’m still lucky for the little I have.
I can’t relate to what most people have lived through that I wonder how the hell do I still connect with them…
I’m the one who understands but never is understood.
It’s a lonely world no matter how many people will smile back at me…

I just keep the hope..that I’ll be blessed with more meaningful and beautiful moments…

The rush

Rushing leaves room for disappointments…do they always?

We aren’t always open to the art of waiting.
It takes wisdom to recognise that good things take time…

We all have this inner knowledge that patience is needed to be able to fully enjoy our lives without our choices crippling ourselves in some way.

This rush for something we aren’t yet ready for, is not necessarily something we can fight against.
To be able to recognise why we are rushing, we must have a whole picture of where we stand, and discover the reason why we feel like rushing.

As you experience the Eureka moment of the reason, you can find a solution, an alternative to rushing…

You can find the place, a place where you should be rushing to! How paradoxical! :)

Keep your heart, mind, soul, open…
Discover the reason for this need to rush into something then work around to find exactly where you should be rushing to instead.

Life’s a puzzle. Enjoy putting the pieces back together!

Much love and strength to you! :)

Love life is a failure

I might be young, going on twenty, but I have had my fair share of heartaches.

For the time being, I just feel acutely lonely for the friends I usually confide in at almost every level have ceased to be part of my everyday life.

There’s nothing more disheartening that realising no one cares enough to really be there or listen to you…

I might continue ranting about loneliness but my life is blessed with people who even if are not aware of my everyday struggles, share moments with me that makes everyday worth the while. Their smiles, laughs, and presence lift me up.

It’s so hard to find someone who you might connect with in a fulfilling way, who you can talk to about your spiritual struggles and philosophical questions.

But when it comes to being attracted, and feeling something in this little heart of mine, I always find myself in situations where I end up just casted out, second best, or simply disliked.

I spend time focusing on the qualities rather than the flaws, it usually comes as a big surprise to me to be disapproved for being who I am.

I’ve changed over the years. I’ve learned to accept people for who they are, gone out of my way to make an effort to talk and be a friend to those much much more different than me.
Gone out of my comfort zone…
Yet, it’s so disappointing that not everyone respect you or even love you for who you are.

One has to have money, be dressed according to society’s likes and dislikes, and adopt the worldwide standards to be admired, noticed…considered…

I don’t say love because love holds much more meaning than whatever it holds for the world.

I’m just sad that the true wealth of the world is not recognised.

Whatever we have inside is discarded for the outside appearances. Each and everyone acts out in a worldwide play, adopting a character instead of having the courage to be free.
Without freedom, there is no love.

As hard as it might be to walk alone, to be rejected, and disapproved, I’m not going to cry for being true to myself…

I just wish, someday, somewhere, someone might find me and really see me as well as love me…to forever keep…

Meanwhile I’ll just have to drink a cup of tea alone but always smiling ^_^

Don’t let anything hold you down

Nothing will ever go according to our own plans, we have to face obstacles, challenges, deceptions, …
One great truth is we are where we are meant to be. We have everything needed in our life to be happy. We just have to change our mindset and focus on developing and multiplying our inner talents.
We have something special to bring to this world we are in.
It may seem difficult at first, but nothing really is. We have everything to tackle the life being thrown at us.
Do not forget that we can start all over again each time. And every time we do so we ought to put much more love and effort than the previous time and much more calm reassurance that we have it all inside.
Smile, breathe and while tackling it all, learn to live and love.